I’ve got tears in my eyes as I write this — I never realized how difficult it would be to feel as if I’m saying goodbye to those whom I’ve really cared about, who evidently really cared about me as well, who took our friendship seriously.
One of them, Dave (Trinity), has already commented on these blogs of mine. He stood up for me by writing a blog there this morning to counter the horrific blog put out by another bully/troll on that same MD dating site. I never got to view that ugly blog RC wrote and perhaps it’s just as well. The moderator there deleted both Dave and RC’s blogs. Dave’s blog did not break the rules but of course, Dave was standing up for me, so apparently his blog had to go. Go figure.
Dave gave me a copy of what he had written in his comment here. It was so moving to read his words and it is just now settling in how lucky I am to have touched the lives of some of the people that I’m now getting to know much better.
I had a look over there on MD a little while ago and to my astonishment saw that Jankia had also written a blog directly to me! Apparently the moderator had done away with my profile, thus all of the mail I sent to various people last night was also done away with before they were able to view it, potentially. Several are asking Jankia for my email address over there, it would seem.
For those reading, my email address is BibleWarrioress@aol.com and it’s not really a state secret so feel free to use and share it with anyone that may want to contact me directly; I don’t mind at all.
Jankia has written a lovely blog tonight and it settled my agitation as I read it, because before I came upon it, I read something else in the MD forum that disturbed me quite a bit. I realized that Jankia always has been good at calming me down with his wise words and brings me back to a level-headed place of self control instead of the hot-headed person I can occasionally be when I get mad.
More and more I learn from some of the Christians at MD who have taught me so much about real Christianity. They walk their talk to the best of their ability. They are really in love with Jesus Christ, and I admire their Christian walk so much. I want to be like them and I feel the bonds of true family reaching across the miles, despite our never having met in person.
I’m so sorry that you’ve been put into the middle on this thing, Jankia, between your former and current friends and myself. I know that some of your friends don’t like me and have clashed with me. Many of them don’t understand me. Hopefully, they will feel as I do though, that it doesn’t matter whether your friends and I get along or we don’t; the fact of the matter is that none of us should be able to stand to see you suffer and so should strive not to allow you to be put into a tug-of-war between us, attempting to make you take sides out of our egos.
Your wisdom astounds me and I know you can make your own wise, valid decisions in this regard, and I trust in that.
Again, this blog is just to thank those of you who have really been here for me and who are continuing to be. There are more of you than I would have ever imagined. IB4U, Angel, and so many others, I hope you are reading and if you aren’t, I hope someone will see that you read this somehow. I miss you and I love you.