I took some action that may or may not have been wise, but I felt that I had to discuss many falsehoods and intentional misleading commentary that was being shared about me at that former home of mine, MD. I felt that to move on from it that I had to set the record straight. I also wanted to write a letter to the moderator there and make clear how wrong I thought he was for the inconsistencies he’s engaged in, and the heavy-handed approach he takes with Christians, in particular.
I wanted to share my new locale with some of the friends I had made there so that I would not lose touch with any of them, so that they would know that I’m all right. I wanted them to see that I’m bouncing back, slowly but surely. Truly, I was hurt over the action taken there against me, and I still am on many levels. I was angry too because I didn’t understand the absolute unfairness of the matter and how it all was handled.
I was dealt with so coldly, with no compassion or understanding, and not even any attempt to communicate with me; I think this was the biggest problem I had with the thing. I expected so much more out of the MD moderator than I received. I guess I thought that I really mattered as one of the members there to him. How wrong I was.
Anyway, it hurt.
Well, I’ve said my piece now, even though it will be wiped away very soon, and I’ve no real reason to return there. I want to close the door on that place for the time being, I guess. It’s time to move ahead and just forgive and attempt to forget. I got to say my goodbyes and communicate with most of those I care about again, so now… I’m moving forward, or at least I will try to do so. I’m not saying I’ll never write about that place again because I have no doubt I will, but I want to positively focus upon the good things I’m finding despite what happened at MD, and the new possibilities for the future — this blog mainly for one.
Another thing is that I’m really in awe of that other place I’ve found (Christian site) and I think I’ve really managed to discover a place where I can learn a wealth of knowledge from some amazing, REAL Christians, who take their beliefs as seriously as I do. And they seem really kind, pleasant, and loving! I don’t see the same kind of pettiness, gossipy behavior, and game-playing that I’ve had to deal with in the past most recently.
I think I could really grow in my Christianity at that place. I’m really looking forward to this.
Going to church at my neighborhood church hasn’t been the best experience because I don’t have a lot in common with some of the people there and it’s such a small church. There are no singles or divorced people my age. Finding that new Christian site is really going to be something that I think may help me more than anything else, short of time spent with God in prayer, the bible, etc.
Anyway, life is looking up and I hope all begins to work out better, despite these bumps in the road of late. I am forging ahead and hoping for the best!