I received a comment from a close friend on Facebook in response to my last posting. Part of the comment went as follows:
“Bitterness is not becoming on you or anyone.”
I’ve been thinking about that comment and felt that it was important enough that I should do a post in response to it, so here goes.
This “daily spiritual journey” of mine is real; it is honest. I am being my sincere, honest-to-God self with you readers, friends, and family. For those of you who are not aware of this fact yet, I am hardly a perfect Christian and I’m not going to attempt to put one over on you so that you think that I am.
Newsflash! I’m not.
I am a work in progress and this is just the truth of the matter. Sometimes I don’t act very Christian at all. Sometimes I use foul language and cuss when I lose my temper. I can also get moody and depressed on occasion, and feel completely overwhelmed with everything going on around me in this world. My responses can most certainly be less than what Jesus expects of me; I am sorry to disappoint you when they are.
I know my friend speaks out of love for me and concern, but I’m growing at God’s pace and I’m not always going to be a good example of a child of God — this journey isn’t like that for me. This journey is one step forward, two steps back sometimes. I succeed and then I fail, yet again. Sometimes I just look stupid, silly, immature, and young in Christ.
When I don’t understand the why’s of something and it hurts me, I can and do react in bitterness, resentment, and even anger initially. As I began to deal with these negative emotions and pray and think things through, I soften over time inwardly. I try to turn the matter over to God, and basically accept that I can do very little to change anyone else. It’s myself that I need to focus upon changing for the long haul. Sharing my thoughts about all of this though, I think helps us all.
Honesty is a good thing, even when it’s not pretty and we need more of it in this world.
Sometimes my postings are going to be raw, gritty, and not bursting with the fruit of the spirit. I screw up as a Christian pretty darn regularly. I also repent my screw ups and try again another day. Thankfully, God seems to understand and accepts me and my flaws anyway, as I hope my readers will, including the conservative Republican readers who disagree with me.
I love all of you truly, no matter your politics, and only want what is best for our country and our world. Of course, I know many of us disagree upon what that is or how we’re going to get there; but again, this is a journey and it would be awfully lame and dull if no one ever thought differently than I do. You have the right to think as you please, differently from me, and I respect your right to do so.
Thanks again for reading me thus far..
- On Being Labeled “Bitter” (lauraleaharriott.wordpress.com)
- The most unloving thing we could do (christians4jahar.wordpress.com)
- Immaturity (dustythane.wordpress.com)
- Be Careful What You Say (Mark 9) (theheartman.wordpress.com)
- Stuck In a Red State (lifeofafemalebiblewarrior.wordpress.com)
- [For] Sinners Who Are Probably Going To Sin Again… (jocsnotebook.wordpress.com)
- Indulge, Repent, Repeat (cinthiamilnerdotcom.wordpress.com)
- Soul CRQs: Authenticity (aroadlesstaken.org)
- The Church; One Big Mess (pennosrandomness.wordpress.com)
- My Biggest Downfall As a Christian (jpfinn7.com)